Sigh - Sowndhaus didn't upload two of my mashups, nuking my nice reverse order!

This is an unintentional sequel to 2012's Her Breath Is The WInd - FM vs Sia. Birds? Check! Fleetwood Mac? Check! Dreamy sad vocal and instrumental? Check! And it's not often I cry at my own mashup while making it, not sure that has ever happened...it happened with this one.

If you don't know me personally - this mashup is me. Completely me, rarely has a mashup or piece of artwork summed up totally how I am feeling and who I am like this one. There has been three like this in my career - Golden Beard about a certain someone, Her Breath and this one.

In lockdown I have been doing a lot of what the ABBA song talks about - sitting in the gloom or dark thinking about better times. And although Frida's vocal is quite stately and reserved, there is darkness and sadness within - at the end:

"So the present runs into the past
Now and then become entwined, playing games within my mind
Like the embers as they die
Love was one prolonged good-bye"

A very personal mashup, and a reminder why I make them. Not for commercial gain, not for fame (a little would be nice) and not for pop hits or happy times. I make music that reflects how I feel - and part of the struggle is my feelings haven't been exactly pop or happy recently. And that pressure to be pop/perfect/pre-eternally happy has just depressed the fuck out of me and taken the joy out of it.

I'd be happy if this was played at my funeral, hopefully that won't happen soon, but that's how I feel about this track. It is completely and utterly me at this moment in time.

ABBA - Like An Angel Passing Through My Room
Fleetwood Mac - Songbird